FF: His Patronus

Sorry, I couldn't help but post this on here! This is probably my favorite thing I've ever written. Not saying it's good or anything; it's just my favorite. It's a fanfiction of Harry Potter (& the Deathly Hallows) Er, it takes place right after Snape finds out Lily had died (which isn't in the books, it describes it sorta in the chapter The Prince's Tale, though.) Anyways, this story basically flooded out of me. Couldn't help writing it, couldn't help posting it. :) AND I'M POSTING IT ON HERE FOR YOU TO READ, SAM AND EMILY! EVEN THOUGH YOU WON'T READ IT! :( Heh!

characters (c) Jo Rowling
text (c) MEE!

Severus Snape looked around at the remains of the Potter household. Crumpled and destroyed, it sat defeated in Godrics Hollow. Nobody was to touch it, he had heard that it was going to be left in it it's ruined state as a memorial. Would people look upon this grave and remember the Potters? Or would they be only thinking of (and fearing) the Dark Lord? As for Snape, all he could think about was the one who died in this house. Not Harry and certainly not James, but Lily. Lily Evans.
He begged. He begged the Dark Lord to have mercy on her, but she did not receive any. How often had he heard the Dark Lord reassuring him that those who help him, he will be merciful and kind to? He had not kept his promise. Lily Evans was dead. Dead. He just couldn't believe it. A tear fell down Severus's cheek and landed soundlessly on the floor. Dead.
He remembered those times as kids. Watching her on the playground, swinging blissfully with her sister. He remembered her long, dark red hair, flowing swiftly in the wind, nearly flag-like, only just touching the ground if she leaned back too far. Her Muggle sister, Petunia, was nothing in comparison. Not by looks, and not by talents.
He remembered the forest, and the stream, telling Lily all he knew about magic- about dementors, the Ministry, Azkaban and about Hogwarts school. He'd never seen her so fascinated, so curious and talkative. He could have spent forever there, just simply talking to her and watching her. How did he become so lucky as to have Lily Evans in his life?
As he remembered, that luck was short lived. Complications arose as soon as school had started. Severus, although he knew he would be even before he arrived at school, was Sorted to Slytherin and Lily was sorted to Gryffindor. He thought that Lily would fit into any school, really. She had the brains and wit to be in Ravenclaw, the nerve and courage to be in Gryffindor (although, he had really hoped she'd be Sorted into any other school besides this one), she had the loyalty to be in Hufflepuff and she was cunning and ambitious, as to be in Slytherin. She wasn't a pure-blooded wizard, though. That was the only reason, Severus had thought, that she wasn't placed in Slytherin along with him.
Being in two different schools set up an whole new realm of complications. They had different classes and completely friends. But the biggest complication of them all would be the rivalry between Slytherin and Gryffindor. Severus knew Lily was constantly being badgered on why she even talked to him, let alone, shared friendship. He as well, was often was teased.
"Can't make friends in this school, is that why you talking to a Gryffindor?"
"I bet she only talks to you because she pities you."
"She is out of your league, you stupid git, even if she is from Gryffindor."
But worst of all, "Severus, why do you waist your time talking to that stupid Mudblood?"
He was the one that reassured her that she would not be judged, would not be looked down upon, if she wasn't pureblood. If Lily found out that he was wrong, or if she accused him of lying, Severus didn't know what he would do. He did not want to lose Lily as a friend.
But of course, his worst fears came true as time passed. Severus made mistakes, mistakes that cost their friendship. But he never gave up on her. A day never passed when Lily had not entered his mind. He watched her from afar, watched her grow even further away from him and even closer to that James Potter. He never liked James Potter much to begin with, but now he felt nothing but uncontrollable resentment. He hated how he was the school's hero, winning Quidditch games right and left. He hated how arrogantly he strode down the hallways, head held high like he owned the place. He hated how he saved his life from the Whomping Willow, and how he managed to sweep Lily off her feet. He absolutely hated him for marrying Lily, for taking her, and he even felt a pang of resentment towards the child that they bore together. It wasn't fair how James swooped in and took the life Severus only dreamed about.
And it certainly wasn't fair that now Lily Evans was dead.
It wasn't fair that now he'd never see her laughing face, the way the sunlight filtered in through the trees and lit her hair up, as if it was on fire, like soft, cheerful candle flames. He tried hard not to think of her eyes. Her warm, green eyes. They would never ensnare him ever again.
There were days, before her death, that he would think about clearing his mind completely of Lily. Some days, he'd get as close to holding his wand to his head, only needing to mutter a single word: 'Obliverate.' But he couldn't do it. Now that she had passed and moved on to a world, he was glad he hadn't. He couldn't bear the thought of not having her in his life, even as memories. He would always need her in his life, even though she wasn't alive herself.
He was glad Voldemort had been defeated. It was her and her son who ultimately defeated him. If Voldemort hadn't died, Severus would be sure to make it his life goal to kill him. Dumbledore had made Severus a spy for him previously, so he wasn't new to Voldemort's tricks of trade. If by some miracle he had survived, and Severus desperately wished he hadn't, Severus and Dumbledore would create a plan to defeat him once and for all. For Lily.
Cold, aching sadness filled Severus. He could not spend anymore time here; or else he'd lose his mind. He couldn't-he refused to- accept the fact that Lily was gone; actually gone, never to walk the earth again. He couldn't control the stream of fresh tears that fell from his eyes. It was like losing her all over again. First, losing her to Potter, and secondly, losing her to death. He wasn't sure which was worst.
Slowly, he withdrew his wand from his pocket. From inside his head, he saw Lily's smile. Her bright green eyes lighting up as it spread across her face. The sadness consumed Severus once again. She's gone, he had to keep reminding himself, you'll never see her do that ever again.
He squeezed his eyes shut, a tear emanating from the corner of his eye. "Expecto patronus," he whispered, the words hardly passing his lips.
From the tip of his wand, a great silver doe sprang onto the soft turf. It leaped a few yards and then looked back. Severus couldn't take it anymore- he dropped to his knees, defeated.
"Lily…"
The doe paused for a minute, glowing brilliantly. Severus knelt there, tears streaming down his cheeks. He wanted to die. He wanted it all to end. He wanted to be with Lily again, and if death was the price, he would pay it.
At last, the doe turned back around and leaped gracefully through the forest, and just as Lily; was gone.

http://www.fanfiction.net/s/6572463/1/His_Patronus

Dang this blog. It ruins the format. OH WELL. I hope you read it, Sam and Emily! If not,,, I'll PWN you when your sleeping. ;D

~secondsfromdisaster :)

Book Reccomendations.

I'm bored. I had somewhat of a crappy day today, and I find that reading helps me escape my problems. Lots of others feel the same way. Henceforth, I'm making this book recommendation list! So, if you ever run out of things to read, I'm sure you'll find something from this list entertaining. Also, I LOVE books that let me escape into a different world. I hate those stupid teeny-crap books about boyfriends and high school drama. I already get enough of it as it is. So, most of this list is fiction and fantasy, because it PWNS all.

Not necessarilyy in order, but my favorites reign towards the top.

1. The Hunger Games trilogy by Suzanne Collins. (The Hunger Games, Catching Fire, Mockingjay.)
2. Harry Potter series by JK Rowling. If you've never read these books, you haven't LIVED.
3. The Percy Jackson Series by Rick Riordan. A bit childish, like, probably a middle school reading range, but, great books. You've just gotta love the characters.
4. The Maximum Ride novels by James Patterson. Well, hmm. These books aren't exactly written the best, but, they're very entertaining. These books are good for someone in 7th, 8th or 9th grade. Basically, these kids are delinquents, so they don't use the best language and act like, well, kids. Most likely, you'll be able to relate to one or more character in this book. Also, the word "freaking" is continually used in context in this series.
5. Unwind by Neal Shusterman. This book is amazing! Although, it's for mostly older kids.
6. The Darkest Powers trilogy by Kelley Armstrong (The Summoning, the Awakening, the Reckoning.) Mostly for mature girls, who like to read about supernatural romances and stuff. Has to do with ghosts, werewolves and witches. It's a great read, though.
7. Graceling by Kristin Cashore. ONE OF MY ALL TIME FAVORITE BOOKS! A must-read for any girl. I lovelovelove it! I've read it more times than Twi-hearts have read Twilight, I'm sure.
8.East by Edith Pattou. This book is amazing. It combines old legends and a romance into a book that any girl would love to read. It's not overly fluffy, and it has lots of adventure.
9. Impossible by Nancy Werblin. Based on a song, the Scarbourough Fair, it's a romance that'll appeal to many teen girl readers. It's also one of my favorites. Heck, I would say Graceling, East and Impossible all fall into the same category. Sort of the same light, romance-y thing goin on, but including action and adventure. It's great!
10. If I Stay by Gayle Forman. This is one of the saddest books I've ever read!

Hmm, all I can think of from the top of my head. I'll be sure to add on as I read more!

~secondsfromdisaster

HARRY POTTER!!

HAHAHHA! Harry Potter meets his puppet pal! ;DD

Yes, I know PPP Harry is missing his arms. Get over it.

Drawing (c) Me

Harry Potter (c) JK Rowling

Potter Puppet Pals (c) Neil Cecierega, youtube

DOOD. Don't you just LOVE Harry Potter? I'm not even kidding. I just wanna marry him. Well, not really, but you get it. Anyways, I'm (re)reading the books, and I JUST LOVE THEM! Like, more than life! Although, it's a little slow in the beginning. But oh well. Plus, I just love how it's in England. I want to go to the UK SOO FREAKING BAD. I wish I had a British accent. :P

Anyways, I just love how many other Harry Potter things there are out there. Like, there's Potter Puppet pals on Youtube (refrenced in picture!), there's a Very Potter Musical (which I've only seen parts of), there's a crap-load of merchindice you can buy including: wands, horcruxes, spellbooks, shirts (which I have!), time-turners, Liquid Luck necklaces, jackets, scarves and fleeces. Also, who doesn't want to go to Harry Potter world in Flordia?!

Dood, I just read the part in the Deathy Hallows where it explains Lily and James' death from Voldy's point of view. I BAWLED MY FREAKING EYES OUT. So sad! Ugh. I feel like a noob. :)

I guess I'm just an a tad over-obsessed. Hah!

OCTO REPARUM!

WINGARDIAN LEVIOSIA!

CRUCIO!

IMPERIO!

ADAVA KEDEVRA!

(I did those from memory, just so ya know! :))

~secondsfromdisaster ;D

Bucket List.

So, I was going through old stuff and found this Bucket List that I had going. So, I decided to add-on and try to complete most of it. Anyways, here it is:

1. Write a novel. (Complete it.)
2. Go on a rollercoaster that goes upside down.
3. Get a tattoo.
4. Go home at lunch and not return back to school, without getting in trouble for skipping.5. Chug a 2-liter soda.
6. Play Clair de Lune on the piano, flawlessly.
7. Publish said novel.
8. Speak a different language fluently.
9. Visit the UK.
10. Go scuba diving.
11. Go to a Taylor Swift concert.
12. Collect over 50 dollars in change found around the house.
13. Go fishing for salmon.
14. Visit and buy something from an antique store.
15. Try everything on the menu at Starbucks.
16. Travel to Greece.
17. Walk on the Great Wall of China.
18. See a bear out in the wild, in it’s natural habitat.
19. Successfully paint a good picture.
20. Go to the premiere of a big motion picture.21. Get one of my favorite authors autographs.
22. Learn to play music by ear.
23. Learn to play Dear John by Taylor Swift on the piano, by ear.
24. Go deep sea fishing.
25. Adopt two children.
26. Visit Australia.
27. Go inside the Gateway Arch in Missouri.
28. Stay with relatives for a few week in a different place, not in this town.
29. Go on a mission trip.
30. Apologize to everyone I have wronged. Everyone.
31. Get colored contacts and convince people I actually have that color eyes.
32. Grow my hair out.
33. Break a bone in my body. (Not on purpose, though!)
34. Wear glasses.35. Read the Bible in it’s entirety.
36. Successfully pull an all-nighter.
37. Make an account on Twitter.
38. Sew myself a shirt/some other clothing garmet.
39. Actually finish a multi-chapter story on Fanfiction.net.
40. Draw something worth sharing.
41. Move out of this town.
42. Learn all the words (and understand what they mean!) of the song Bebot by the Black Eyed Peas.
43. Make a music video.
44. Make a how-to-play video tutorial of a song on the piano and post it on Youtube.
45. Get a job.
46. Get my permit.
47. Get my license.
48. Start a conversation with a complete stranger.
49. Visit New York.
50. Eat authentic Southern food in the South.
51. Go a whole day without talking to anybody.52. Try eggnog for the first time.
53. Receive a mixed CD from someone other than family.54. Give a CD back.
55. Go Black Friday shopping.
56. Successfully build a snowman all by myself.
57. Write a song that actually sounds good.
58. Make a difference in someone’s life.59. Make a sock puppet.
60. Drink black coffee, straight. No creamer or anything.61. Eat something de-fried that’s not supposed to be deep-fried, (twinkies, oreos, etc.)
62. Lay outside in the heavy rain.
63. Win in a staring contest.
64. Buy a band tee from an actual concert.
65. Buy something from a flea market.
66. Tell someone how it is.
67. Hike both Table Rocks.
68. Get a short-haired cat.
69. Create a blog.
70. Talk to a celebrity.
71. Make a shirt from my favorite book.
72. Learn to write my name in a different language.
73. Put together a scrapbook.74. Create my own comic strip for my own families enjoyment.
75. Graduate from high school.
76. Go to college.
77. Ban soda from my life.
78. Complete everything on this list.
79. Attend a wedding.
80. Attend a funeral.
81. Play hide n seek in a cemetery/try to conquer my fear of them. (Probably the most difficult task on this list.)
82. Visit the Parthenon in Greece.
83. Visit the Parthenon in Tennessee.
84. Go on a cruise.
85. Visit a different country.
86. Go to Harry Potter World.
87. Hold my breath for longer than a minute.
88. You.
89. Make an awesome origami horse.
90. Volunteer.
91. See the Northern Lights.
92. Punch somebody in the face.
93. Live in Seattle with my sister.
94. Dye my hair.
95. See a play/show.
96. Own a large aquarium.
97. Tell a total stranger about God and Christianity.
98. Paint my room by myself.
99. Get all A’s on a report card without parental help.100. Go on a road trip without any destination in mind.
101. Compete in a triathlon.
102. Be on TV for one reason or another.
103. Buy a manga/graphic novel.
104. Find an arrowhead.
105. Cook dinner for the family
106. Ride horses on the beach.
107. Spend a whole day watching old disney movies.
108. Drink coconut milk from an actual coconut.
109. Be in Times Square when the ball drops.
110. Go on a run at midnight.
111. Sing in front of people. (Even though I suck. ;D)
112. Paint my nails black.
113. Learn Drops of Jupiter on the piano.
114. Webcam with someone.
115. Learn to draw anime.
116. Drive through LA in a convertable.
117. Have a penpal.
118. Drink out of someone elses drink. (I'm so proud of myself.)
119. Buy a tablet.
120. Master a British accent.
121. Read the Illiad and the Odyssey in it's entirety.
122. Learn to use charcoal sucessfully.


Obviously, I can't do some of these things at this age, but, I'm working on it! Hopefully this list will be completely struckthrough before I die.

~secondsfromdisaster.
;D